Video Blog

Well I did my 1st ever video blog. I was really nervous but it wasn't as bad as I thought it was gonna be. SO I thought I'd share it with you all. Enjoy.

Prayers Needed!!!

This was copy and pasted from Kayleigh's blog.

Prayer Warriors Needed

Hello everyone,


One of my personal training clients at work (Chelsey) has a good friend (Jennie), only 21 years old, who was in a serious car accident a short time ago. She is currently in a coma and her situation is critical. She needs many prayers as well as her family needs many prayers through this very tough journey.


Please stop by and let them know we are praying endlessly for her recovery. Just like our sweet Kayleigh's journey, when more than one are praying for healing, God is certainly listening and can do amazing things.


The blog is: http://www.jenniesavickas.blogspot.com/


Thank you all so much!


God Bless,

7 weeks

I'm 7 weeks +1 now. This weeks I've been getting queasy, especially when I wake up in the morning. I've been eating but NOTHING sounds good to me. Sometimes just the thoughts of eating makes me feel slightly queasy. This is new for me, as I never felt sick with the girls. I've been exhausted lately. I actually am about to take a nap after I finish writing this. I'm always hungry, which in return makes me feel queasy. Kinda weird huh? Well, Ryan bought me a fetal heart doppler for my birthday. I got it from eBay and it just came in a few days ago. I have tried it although I know it's WAY too early to hear our little ones heart quite yet. O' well, I'll keep trying till I hear it. I did have another ultrasound today along with another visit with the doctor. I have lost 4 pounds since the 2nd of this month. That's crazy to me. I don't see how. I'm sure to gain it back very soon though. The heartbeat was 120 bpm. The bleeding MAY be coming from the other horn in my uterus. Remember that I have a bicournate uterus. She (the tech) said that I may continue to bleed throughout my pregnancy b/c of my uterus. She said the lining in the other side is still thick and is still shedding. The side that the baby is in is not shedding at all, so that's good. Here is a pic to give you an idea of what a bicournate uterus looks lie before and during pregnancy.





So everything was ok. I go back on the 30th for all the history paper work. I then go back in the 1st week of Jan for my finger prick (genetics for downs) then I go back in my 11th week for the ultra screening u/s for downs and other genetics.

Oh yeah, don't forget to check out my pregnancy photos. You can link to it by clicking "my pregnancy photos" in the upper right hand side of this blog. You won't be seeing much now as I'm still small and the baby is only the size of a blueberry. Give it time though...I'll have a baby belly before you know it! ;)

5 Weeks...Appt. and U/S

Today was my 1st ultrasound and 1st prenatal appointment. I went in at 2pm for the u/s. The tech was so nice. She was very friendly and talkative. Just what I needed to calm my nerves. I have been spotting since Thanksgiving day. It was pink for 3 days then to brown. Needless to say it has scared me to death. Today I had no spotting so that was good. Well the tech had me lay down to do the u/s. I was surprised to even see the gestational sac through an abdominal u/s this early. Unfortunately we were unable to see the baby that way. I had to have a dreaded trans vaginal u/s in order to see the baby. Anyone who has ever had one of those KNOWS how uncomfortable that is. Well once she started the u/s that way she had to push on my tummy to see the baby on the screen. Some good news? The baby is in the larger horn of my bicornuate uterus. Bad news, sorta? Too early to see or hear the heartbeat. Well, I was a little upset by the fact that we couldn't see the heart beating. Kinda had me worried. I though and could have swore that we seen Hannah's heart beating at 5w6d. When I came home though I found Hannah's 1st u/s and it wasn't till 6w3d that we seen and heard her heart beating. So other than that every thing looked good on the u/s. The Little Bean was measuring at exactly 5w6d. That is perfect dating according to the day I ovulated. There was no signs of anything wrong or reason for spotting which was good to know. I go back the Friday after next. That will be December 11th. I had my blood pressure and weight checked today. I forgot to ask what my BP was. My weight was 137. I was SO shocked. That means I have gained 3 pounds since the 4th of November. How is that possible? I haven't been pigging out or anything. Well, 'm going to try to eat as healthy as possible and walk the dog 3 times a day. I'm hoping the walking will help to keep my weight stable for a while. I sat down with the doctor in his office after my exam and spoke with him for a bit. I told him that I had been losing quite a bit of hair for a few months now. Then I told him that since being pregnant it has gotten much worse. I see that my hair line is receding from it. It's been driving me crazy. Well, I've thought I have a thyroid issue for the past few months after doing research online. I have almost ALL symptoms on the list. Also people with this problem when pregnant face having babies that are small (IUGR), birth defects, and possible stillbirth. Well funny that I have had ALL 3! So as soon as I told the doc about my hair loss he said I needed my thyroid levels checked. I was so relieved to hear him say that. This doc always seems to be a step ahead of the game. That is really putting our minds at ease. So I went to the lab after my appt. today and had my regular prenatal blood work done along with the thyroid panel done. I hope to get the results back soon. If I do have a thyroid imbalance, it will really explain a lot of my pregnancy history. It may sound weird, but I kinda hope that that IS what's been going on. Why do I say that? Well, if that IS the case, it's treatable with meds. That means I could have a normal pregnancy if treated. I hate to have something wrong with me but would LOVE to have answers. It would be such a huge relief. Well that's about it. I go back on December 11th for my 2nd u/s and then on December 30th for my 2nd prenatal appt.

Here is our Little Bean. 5w6d

The Secret Garden Meeting.

The secret garden meeting

This is from the October meeting. A little late, but here none the less.

The questions from the October meeting:

So this meeting we would like to talk about where you are. Where are you at in your grief. Has it been years or just weeks since you lost your baby. How are you feeling. How do you hope you will feel in the future. Have you found any peace at all?

Where am I in my grief? Well it's been 2 years since we delivered Carly. We spent 4 beautiful short months with her surrounded by the 4 walls of the hospital. In March, it will mark her 2 year ANGELversiery. It has been one year this month since losing Hannah. I'm feeling pretty good these days. I don't cry too often anymore. Although sometimes it makes me feel guilty. I sometimes feel like I should be grieving more. Then when I start to feel that way I start to think of the strength that I have prayed for. I can only believe that God has completely strengthened me and comforted me through this whole process. I think the lack of tears comes from faith in knowing that I will see them again and that "goodbye" wasn't forever. I feel a lot of peace over my losses. I know that only comes from God. I think of my girls daily. And I thank God daily for the short time I had with them. In the future I hope I'm as at peace with my losses as I am now. My prayers go to my husband though. We were talking about our girls the other day ad how we feel in the here and now. I was telling him how I have found comfort and that it's no longer something weighing me down. He told me it still makes him sad to think of the girls. Hearing him say that made me sad. I don't want him to be sad when he thinks of them. I want him to smile when he thinks of them like I do. Grief comes in many forms for everyone and grief is different for everyone. I wish no one ever had to go through it. Sadly though it happens. I just hope people who do face it are surrounded with a great support system mike I have been.

I have an appointment!

I go Monday to the doctor to have my blood drawn. As soon as my levels get to 3,000 (I think) they will give me my 1st ultrasound. I should reach 3,000 by about 5 weeks. The u/s will be for nothing more than dating reasons. I'm ready to see our little bean though. It will give me a peace of mind in knowing that everything is ok in there.

We have decided to let this baby's gender be a surprise. It took a lot of talking through to decide which route we were gonna go with this. I wanted Carly and Hannah to be a surprise but we found out anyways. With this pregnancy possibly being our last I do want to wait to find out. It's like getting an extra little gift the day you deliver. It will be so exciting! I've been feeling good in the way of symptoms. I haven't had any yet. If this pregnancy is anything like Carly or Hannah's it will basically be symptom free. I'm only going to be working for another 3 weeks. Then I'm going to quit. Well I say quit but I'll still be doing some work. I won't however be standing on my feet for 8 hours a day passing out meds anymore. I'm going to be doing paper work at home. hat way I'm still making money but also taking it easy at the same time. My doctor wants me out of work by 12 weeks anyway so this is a happy medium.

On a side note, my car has been parked for a little over a month now. The fuel injector went bad causing a knocking noise in one of my cylinders and the transmission range sensor went bad. My car would get stuck in low gear and I would put my foot all the way down on the gas and my car would only creep at turtle speed. Well we got the parts for $180 on Wednesday. My neighbor being the nice guy he is, fixed my car today in less than an hour. The dealership was going to charge me $344 to fix it. That is just crazy! He said he did it for free. Well we can't NOT pay him something. I mean he took that time out of his own day on a weekend to help us out. So we are gonna give him some money for fixing my car. I'm so glad to have it back though. I've been driving my MIL's car for a while. She had to take it back about a week ago b/c the battery in her other car died. So I've been depending on Ryan to drive me back and forth to work. So glad to get it back!

Good News!

Well I'm not good at keeping secrets so I'll go ahead and spill the beans! I'm pregnant! We are excited. We are just putting everything in God's hands. We are just going to trust in Him to allow this baby to be healthy and to provide a healthy home for this child within my body.

I am still in complete shock! I have been taking pregnancy test just about every day since the 10th of this month. everyone of the have been coming back just as negative as they could be. I had completely lost all faith in this cycle and was just planning on trying again next month. I have had NO symptoms what-so-ever. I even though my period was on it's way with a few cramps that I have had. I guess the cramps was just the little bean implanting into it's new home. Last night a friend asked me if I had any signs of my period coming and I told her yes. I told her about my cramping and I was sure it would show up today. Well shortly after explaining that I felt as if this month was a bust I took a test just for the heck of it. As soon as the color went completely across the window of the test I chucked it in the garbage. I knew it would be negative. For some reason I felt the need to go back 5 mins later and pull it out of the trash. I was shocked to see a faint line there. I didn't believe it. My brothers were over with my husband watching the fight so I was showing Ryan and my brothers the test to get their opinions. I just said I'd take another one in the morning. This time I was going to use a first response test instead of a dollar tree test. Well at 3am I woke up having to pee so i figured why not? Sure enough I got 2 lines. I'm pregnant! Woot Woot!